At The Well

As I read Renee's story about her house needing repair and then Sam's story I started thinking. What is there that the Lord needs to repair in my heart. The first thing that caught my heart stings about Sam was the loneliness then the second was rejection. My eyes teared up and I thought hmm rejection that truly is a part of my heart, a big part of my heart that somehow has a hard time with. Where did the rejection come from? Broken promises, promises from a father that said he would love you forever then he sexually molests you, a mother that says she loves you but is unable to help you get past the hurt, defilement, insecurity and so many other feelings that comes with this. Then the broken promises of broken marriages,comparing yourself to others. My daughters say that sometimes I'm so emotional they have a hard time understanding where it all comes from. My oldest is a follower of Christ's and has a very close relationship with Him. Praise Him because I do know she prays for me. Yes in my head I know that when I asked Jesus to become my Savior he changed me from the person I was to a new creature the old has past away. However, in my heart I still have doubts about His love and acceptance. Not because of who I am but because of who He is will  I be set free from these terrible doubts the attack my security in Jesus. So yes I can relate to Sam and how much she wanted and needed Jesus. I want Him and need Him to be my everything and am embracing his healing/repairing of my heart. Then I can truly say with confidence that "I am a daughter of the Most High"